***disclaimer...this post is about to get uber personal****
if you have issues with people talking about their bowel movements please stop reading here
At the risk of sounding completely insane....I came to a few realizations about myself this morning.....as I'm going over and over in my head the naming, preparations and reactions of aldehydes, keytones, carboxylic acids, esters, amines and amids....while I'm yes...going #2....I realized I have a problem (and no its not a problem going poo...although I've had uber awful tummy issues lately....probably due in large part to my insane amounts of stress over this damn chemistry test I have on Thursday)......so...hi...my name is Jessica...and I am a perfectionist. I have reached an all time low in my perfectionist ways... studying for chemistry....while going poo.....there...the first step in fixing a problem is admitting you have one right???
All jokes aside...this applies not only when it comes to school work...but in my real life too....I don't know where it comes from...but I have this superhero strong belief somehwere deep down inside of me... that if you're not going to do something right...and if you're not going to give whatever it is you're doing everything you have....you shouldn't do it at all.....this goes way beyond studying for tests....to the simplest things....like sending thank you notes....properly addressing wedding invitations (sorry you guys know I had to throw that in)....folding clothes.....doing laundry...cooking meals....cleaning....the acceptable things to say to people vs. not say....the list could go on and on....I'm pretty sure I'm boarderline OCD....
This led me to another realization....that being a perfectionist is EXHAUSTING!!!!!! nobody ever notices that you put everything you have into everything you do (except for you)....the people who fly by the seat of their pants....are no different than the people that plan and prepare for every single possible detail....the A student gets no farther than the C student.....the procrastinators get the same job done as the obsessive planners (eventually).....
This led me to another realization....that being a perfectionist is EXHAUSTING!!!!!! nobody ever notices that you put everything you have into everything you do (except for you)....the people who fly by the seat of their pants....are no different than the people that plan and prepare for every single possible detail....the A student gets no farther than the C student.....the procrastinators get the same job done as the obsessive planners (eventually).....
I guess there's a middle ground in there somewhere...and hopefully I'll find it one of these days....after all...life is just a balancing act.....so skip class....procrastinate on writing that paper or planning for that test....mix things up in your life....because we all know that even though you COULD have made an A on that chemistry test...making a C every now and then is ok too.....
***however failing is not an option.....so its back to the books I go....*****
"life is what happens when you're busy making other plans"--John Lennon
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